urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe Then you got in your car.. lmoe 2007-06-17T03:05:58Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:125750 2007-06-17T03:05:58Z 2007-06-17T03:05:58Z If you have changed for the worst, is it because you are not acceptable to their standards or is it because you are who you are and you are not afraid to show that.<br /><br />Why should you still hold on to what you only thing that you have cared about (to where you are now and who you are to this present day) when you could pass up what is right under your nose?<br /><br />Why do we call eachother friends when we have grown so far apart we can not even ask eachother how have you been? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:125557 2006-08-01T03:50:15Z 2006-08-01T03:50:15Z FREAKKKKINNNNNGGGGGGG OUTTTT<br /><br />My body is freaking me out.<br />I am always sick.<br />I may have a life cylce<br />of its own.<br /><br /><br />I don't know how to handle<br />much of anything.<br />I have never felt more alone,<br />when I should feel like<br />they are always there.<br /><br />Distance.<br />yeah, I don't handle "solitude" well.<br /><br /><br />Life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:125327 2006-06-18T22:39:43Z 2006-06-18T22:39:43Z I feel useless.<br />Can't help but think<br />about myself every once<br />in awhile. Holding on by<br />a piece of thread.<br /><br /><br /><br />Even though there are<br />those good things.<br /><br />Nevermind.<br />Xanga is pointless.<br />Livejournal is dumb.<br /><br />Myspace owns. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:125024 2006-02-08T13:21:37Z 2006-02-08T13:21:37Z And when i see you<br />I really see you upside down<br />But my brain knows better<br />It picks you up and turns you around<br />Turns you around, turns you around<br /><br />If you feel discouraged<br />That there's a lack of color here<br />Please don't worry lover<br />It's really bursting at the seems<br />Absorbing everything<br />The spectrum's a to z<br /><br />This is fact not fiction<br />For the first time in years<br />And all the girls in every girlie magazine <br />Can't make me feel any less alone<br />I'm reaching for the phone<br /><br />To call at 7:03 and on your machine I slur a plea for you to come home<br />But i know it's too late <br />I should have given you a reason to stay<br />Given you a reason to stay [x3]<br /><br />This is fact not fiction<br />For the first time in years urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:124897 2006-02-08T13:20:42Z 2006-02-08T13:20:42Z Love of mine some day you will die <br />But I'll be close behind <br />I'll follow you into the dark <br /><br />No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white <br />Just our hands clasped so tight <br />Waiting for the hint of a spark <br />If heaven and hell decide <br />That they both are satisfied <br />Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs <br /><br />If there's no one beside you <br />When your soul embarks <br />Then I'll follow you into the dark <br /><br />In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule <br />I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black <br />And I held my toungue as she told me <br />"Son fear is the heart of love" <br />So I never went back <br /><br />If heaven and hell decide <br />That they both are satisfied <br />Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs <br /><br />If there's no one beside you <br />When your soul embarks <br />Then I'll follow you into the dark <br /><br />You and me have seen everything to see <br />From Bangcock to Calgary <br />And the soles of your shoes are all worn down <br />The time for sleep is now <br />It's nothing to cry about <br />Cause we'll hold each other soon <br />The blackest of rooms <br /><br />If heaven and hell decide <br />That they both are satisfied <br />Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs <br /><br />If there's no one beside you <br />When your soul embarks <br />Then I'll follow you into the dark <br />Then I'll follow you into the dark urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:124511 2006-02-07T13:48:22Z 2006-02-07T13:48:22Z the silence of a library We all were lost now we are found<br />No one can stop us or slow us down<br />We are the named and we are known<br />We know that we'll never walk alone<br /><br />But I'm feeling alright<br />Here at the top of the world<br />Doing just fine<br />Here at the top of the world<br /><br />We hold our own by keeping our hearts cold<br />And we've learned what matters most<br />So we keep our hearts cold<br /><br />how can i bear this any longer<br />arms stretched out only to hold separation<br />take me away<br />i'm dying inside, emptied before you<br />take me into your arms<br />i will fight until the day when i will see<br />sight given to these blind eyes<br />when will i be taken from this life?<br />take what is Yours<br />you deserve more than my life<br /><br />my hope has been beset by your absence <br />i decay from inside <br />underneath it all there is still life <br />despite it all there is still love <br /><br />Search <br />For<br />Truth<br /><br /><br />We might kiss when we are alone<br />When nobody's watching<br />We might take it home<br />We might make out when nobody's there<br />It's not that we're scared<br />It's just that it's delicate<br /><br />So why do you fill my sorrow<br />With the words you've borrowed<br />From the only place you've know<br />And why do you sing Hallelujah<br />If it means nothing to you<br />Why do you sing with me at all?<br /><br />We might live like never before<br />When there's nothing to give<br />Well how can we ask for more<br />We might make love in some sacred place<br />The look on your face is delicate<br /><br />I want you hear tonight<br />I want you hear<br />'Cause I can't believe what I found<br />I want you hear tonight<br />I want you hear<br />Nothing is taking me down, down, down...<br /><br />Except you my love. Except you my love...<br /><br />Come all ye lost<br />Dive into moss<br />I hope that my sanity covers the cost<br />To remove the stain of my love<br />Paper mach?<br /><br />I wanna hear what you have to say about me<br />Hear if you're gonna live without me<br />I wanna hear what you want<br />I remember december<br />And I wanna hear what you have to say about me<br />Hear if you're gonna live without me<br />I wanna hear what you want<br />What the hell do you want<br /><br />Say anything, but say what you mean.<br />When you whisper you want this<br />your eyes tell the same.<br />We are gaining speed<br />I can barely breathe. <br />Cause I'm caught in suspension. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:124367 2005-12-07T23:27:52Z 2005-12-07T23:27:52Z a boy: bye dear <br /><br />I wish I could do something right for this kid.<br />Make him happy?<br />Idk.<br /><br /><br />There is another boy.<br />Where has the hope gone.<br />I am so frustrated.<br /><br /><br />my mind needs a break. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:124090 2005-12-06T22:05:02Z 2005-12-06T22:05:02Z Yeah, you still kiss me, but it's just on the cheek<br />Yeah, you still kiss me, but it's just on the cheek<br />Yeah, you still kiss me sometimes, but it's just on the cheek<br />You pull away so easily<br /><br />And I still call you, but I get your machine<br />And I still call you, but I get your machine<br />And if I'm lucky I guess, I get your roommate answering<br />But you're at the bar, or at Gene's<br /><br />And we go to dinner, but you won't hold my hand<br />We sit at the same table, but we don't play with our feet<br />Yeah, we still go to dinner sometimes, but we don't sneak a kiss<br />When the waitress turns around<br /><br />And we still watch movies, but we don't share the couch<br />And we still rent movies, but we don't share the couch<br />Yeah, we still watch movies sometimes, but you don't lay in my lap<br />The plot is slow, take a nap<br /><br />And you even stay over, but now we stay in our clothes<br />Yeah, you'll even sleep over, but now we stay in our clothes<br />Yeah, you even sleep over sometimes, but we stay in our clothes<br />I'm only there so that you're not alone<br /><br />And you say that I hurt you, in a voice like a prayer<br />Yeah, you say that I've hurt you, and your voice is like a prayer<br />Yeah, well maybe I hurt you sometimes, but let's contrast and compare<br />Lift up your shirt, the wound isn't there<br /><br />I guess that your truth, is just the ghost of your lies<br />I guess your kind of truth, is just the ghost of your lies<br />Yeah, your kind of truth, darling, is just the ghost of your lies<br />I see through them all the time<br />So I'm pouring some whiskey, I'm gonna get drunk<br />Yeah, I'm pouring myself some whiskey, I'm going to get really fucking drunk<br />I'm pouring some whiskey right now, I'm going to get so, so drunk<br />That I pass out, forget your face, by the time I wake up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:123806 2005-12-02T01:07:59Z 2005-12-02T01:07:59Z but i better be quiet now, <br />i'm tired of wasting my breath<br />carrying on, not over it yet.<br /><br />wish i knew what you were doing.<br />why you want to do it this way.<br />so i can't go the distance,<br />i got a long way to go, <br />i'm getting further away.<br />i got a long way to go<br />getting further away. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:123586 2005-11-22T13:51:01Z 2005-11-22T13:51:01Z The voices of addicted car freaks is filling my ears.<br /><br />good morning urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:123202 2005-11-08T22:43:16Z 2005-11-08T22:43:16Z One last kiss for you<br />One more wish to you<br />Please make up your mind (boy)...<br />I'd do anything for you<br />One last kiss for you<br />On more wish to you<br />Please make up your mind (boy)...<br />Before I hope you die<br /><br /><br />School is school.<br />Skipping 1st block will be a new thing to do.<br /><br />--blade of grass once more urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:123043 2005-11-05T07:25:49Z 2005-11-05T07:25:49Z We might kiss when we are alone<br />When nobody's watching<br />We might take it home<br />We might make out when nobody's there<br />It's not that we're scared<br />It's just that it's delicate<br /><br />So why do you fill my sorrow<br />With the words you've borrowed<br />From the only place you've know<br />And why do you sing Hallelujah<br />If it means nothing to you<br />Why do you sing with me at all? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:122819 2005-10-31T11:18:00Z 2005-10-31T11:18:00Z fall out boy What do I do?<br /><br />I am so confused.<br /><br />So, I'm thinking.<br /><br />"This has been said<br />so many times that <br />I'm not sure if it <br />Matters." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:122436 2005-10-19T12:42:01Z 2005-10-19T23:43:30Z love you so, i very much urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:122194 2005-10-17T00:18:01Z 2005-10-17T00:18:01Z <img style="WIDTH: 397px; HEIGHT: 277px" height="560" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v703/LastGoodbye__/Friends/me/8238862d.jpg" width="656"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:122093 2005-10-10T17:56:53Z 2005-10-10T17:56:53Z I care a great deal.<br />Don't EVER question it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:121769 2005-10-03T12:48:41Z 2005-10-03T12:48:41Z automechanic students "I am in love with you<br />But if you love me<br />If you love me<br />You love me<br />Love me<br />Me. <br />I suppose I'll always love you." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:121129 2005-09-30T17:11:42Z 2005-09-30T17:11:42Z Tilly and the Wall Psh urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:121072 2005-09-19T23:23:22Z 2005-09-19T23:23:22Z circa survive -----Basic Shizzle-----<br />Name: Rachel<br />Age: 15<br />Sex: Female<br />Birthday: March 26, 1990<br />Eye Color: Brown<br />Hair Color: Dark Brown<br />Where are you from: St. Martin<br />Where do you currently live: St. Martin<br /><br />-----Favorite Shizzle-----<br />Favorite word: I don't know.<br />Favorite number: 9<br />Favorite letter: lowercase z<br />Favorite color: Purple<br />Favorite car: I don't know cars well enough<br />Favorite vacation spot: I don't know.<br />Favorite place to think: When I am running<br />Favorite place to hang out: anywhere with my friends<br />Favorite drink (non-alchy): moutain dew and water<br />Favorite drink (alchy): vodka<br />Favorite resturant: Bangcock House <div class='ljparseerror'>[<b>Error:</b> Irreparable invalid markup ('&lt;sp?&gt;') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.]<br /><br /><div style="width: 95%; overflow: auto">-----Basic Shizzle-----<br />Name: Rachel<br />Age: 15<br />Sex: Female<br />Birthday: March 26, 1990<br />Eye Color: Brown<br />Hair Color: Dark Brown<br />Where are you from: St. Martin<br />Where do you currently live: St. Martin<br /><br />-----Favorite Shizzle-----<br />Favorite word: I don&#39;t know.<br />Favorite number: 9<br />Favorite letter: lowercase z<br />Favorite color: Purple<br />Favorite car: I don&#39;t know cars well enough<br />Favorite vacation spot: I don&#39;t know.<br />Favorite place to think: When I am running<br />Favorite place to hang out: anywhere with my friends<br />Favorite drink (non-alchy): moutain dew and water<br />Favorite drink (alchy): vodka<br />Favorite resturant: Bangcock House &lt;sp?&gt;<br />Favorite meal of the day: Dinner<br />Favorite teacher (ever): Mrs. Tavel (transitions)<br />Favorite band: Oh gosh, He is Legend<br />Favorite sport: Soccer and Tennis<br />Favorite person: Corinne<br /><br />-----Random shizzle----<br />What do you drive: Nothing<br />Whats your shoe size: 8<br />Whos a famous person that bothers you: I don&#39;t really pay attention.<br />What kind of cell phone do you have: a nokia<br />What cell service: cellular south<br />Do you like where you live? if my sister would grow up and move<br />Speak more than one language fluently: no<br />Where do you want to go to college: to young<br /><br />-----This or That (shizzle....)-----<br />Up or down: down<br />left or right: left<br />Red or Green: red<br />fast or slow: fast<br />big or small: big<br />open or closed: open<br />high or low: high<br />dry or wet: wet<br />cold or hot: cold<br />..2 or ..6 million: 2<br />Macro or Nano: I don&#39;t know what is.<br />bling or shiny: bling<br />ocean or pool: ocean<br />outside or inside: Outside<br /><br />-----Lasts things-----<br />Last name: Webb<br />Last fast food dinner: Taco Bell<br />Last phone call sent: Brandon<br />Last phone call received: Meaghan<br />Last person thanked: I don&#39;t know, I think Nina. The girl from Minnesota.<br />Last person said I love you to: Me nephew, since he is the best baby ever.<br />Last who told you I love you: Corinne<br />Last person you played a prank on: I&#39;m not a prakster, I&#39;m totally gangsta. ;)<br />Last time you got sick: my throat hurts now<br />Last stupid thing you did: Ummmmm, danced naked in my room. HAH, j/k <br />Last person who told you they had a crush on you: your mom.<br />Last person you had a crush on: No comment.<br />Last good laugh: With the Original Crew --Corinne, Scott, Josh, Chris-- And, the help of Amanda and Megan<br />Last arguement: With my sister last night.<br />Last time you ate at waffle house: a couple days after the storm, with a friends family.<br /><br />-----Have you Ever-----<br />Lied: yes<br />Cheated (on anything): tests<br />Stolen: sure<br />Shot a gun: not yet, but my uncle is going to teach me<br />Driven over 130 mph: No<br />Got a ticket for anything: not yet<br />Passed out from heat: nope<br />Ran away: mmhmm<br />Snuck out: oh god, the stories.<br />Dated someone your parents didnt approve of: yep <br />Smoked a ciggarette: yes<br />Snorted a pixie stick: gross<br />Made fun of a teacher/boss/cop to his or her face: yeahh, mr. daniel and mrs. hanson <br /><br />-----Would you-----<br />Join the armed forces: no<br />Have more than 2 kids: doubt yep<br />Run from cops: never had too<br />Cheat on a boyfriend or girlfriend: No way.<br />Go on a date with someone from the internet: Oh gosh, haha<br />Date someone 4 years older than you: God, Gross.<br />Admit to stealing something from your parents: Depends<br /><br />-----Random Poo-----<br />Are you a virgin: No<br />Have you ever been kissed: yes<br />Do you have an iPod: Nope<br />Do you have a job: Nope<br />Hardest friend to get in touch with: Nick and Blake<br />Best Friend: Corinne<br />Ever been caught by the parents: Doing what??<br />Are you bored: yes<br />Is that the reason you did this: of coarse<br /><br />--</div></div> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:120696 2005-09-16T00:32:38Z 2005-09-16T00:32:38Z underoath- <p>My friends mom made me laugh really hard today.<br>We were driving, and there was this car driving slow,<br>In front of her.. and just staring at her. Dickhead.<br>She said aloud :::::<br><br>"You can suck my asshole dry!"<br><br>I thought that was rather gross, but so funny.<br><br>Anyways ----<br><br>I am going.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:120413 2005-08-27T07:19:59Z 2005-08-27T07:19:59Z death cab for cutie <p><font color="#ffccff"><em><font face="Verdana" size="2">Tiny vessels oozed into your neck<br>And formed the bruises<br>That you said you didn't want to fade<br>But they did and so did i that day<br><br>All i see are <strong><font color="#cccccc">dark grey</font></strong> clouds<br>In the distance moving closer with every hour<br>So when you ask "was something wrong?"<br>That i think "you're damn right there is but we can't talk about it now. <br>No, we can't talk about it now."</font><br><br></em></font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:120068 2005-08-27T02:50:18Z 2005-08-27T02:50:18Z showbread <p><br><font color="#9999ff"><font face="Verdana">Shimmering sweat for the swollen shame that squeezes my lack of a stomach<br>I wish I was everything that you wanted when the plane took off<br>she didn't realize there was an absolute selfishness<br>wrapping strangling hands around her pale neck<br>to choke an adolescent out of her<br>and I started to weep as the glass just broke into so many shards around her<br>and I cried and walked in a circle behind her a million miles away my love,<br>my heart, where are the words to say?<br>because I am so tired, I am so tired today my <font color="#ff6666"><strong>love</strong></font>,<br>my heart where are the words to say?<br>Because I am exhausted, I am so tired today</font></font></p> <p><br>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:120062 2005-08-26T23:46:13Z 2005-08-26T23:46:13Z some tv show Thoughts inside my head.<br /><br />Hmmm so whats going down tonight? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:119610 2005-08-17T22:59:14Z 2005-08-17T22:59:14Z Ugh, I want some ice cream.<br />Chocolate Cookie Dough. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lmoe:119428 2005-08-17T22:57:44Z 2005-08-17T22:57:44Z showbread Man I had a bad day today.<br />It really did fail.